Thursday, October 11, 2001: Ok I have some really really REALLY cool news. I'm going out with the sweetest most caring guy that i have ever known .. no I'm not just saying that cuz he's my boyfriend, because I've known him long before I went out with him.. our friendship grew into love.. his name.. you may have heard before because i have mentioned it many times.. his name: Jay.. Thanx to him, I've gotten through many a bad time. Thank you so much Jay... I love you dearly. ::soft laugh:: at this very moment, he's watching me and is gettin all nosy sayin c'mon show me what yer typin ::whiney voice:: god he is such a cutie at time.. Don't Deny It Jay ^_^ I'm going to stay with jay.. he;s the one for me.. he's just so right for me... I just wanted to let everyone know about this and keep everyone up to date on my life... take care everyone.. goodnight. J.

Tuesday, October 9, 2001: well.. some bad news.. I suppose..... I've broken up with kevin.. we're no more.. and I don't care if he reads this or not... I've found out he's manipulative and controlling.. he even tried to lay guilt and shame on me for trying to break up with him... he cried.. that didn't work so he got pissed and started yelling and swearing at me.. especially when he said "MON FUCKING CHERI" so you know what? fuck him and the horse that brought him.. until he can come to his senses that's how I feel... but I will never get back together with him... I need someone who cares for me.. and wants to please me.. and will try his best for me... that will mean alot to me..
But on a lighter note, school's goin pretty good... lol even if this one freshman girl is like lookin up to me.. ACK me?? lol.. j/k it's all cool .. she's a really nice girl, kinda a cutie too, and she likes Sailor Moon, Tenchi, those kinds of animes... I think I'll go take a nice hot shower... it sounds like such a good idea.... talk to you all later.. J.

Tuesday, October 2, 2001: Ok guess what!!! I had the most awesome kick ass day! My A.P. Studio Art class had a field trip. We went downtown to the Art Institute. We saw a extremely sweet show comparing Paul Gauguin and Vincent van Gogh. here are two quotes from Gauguin I really liked: "I have a picture that I think will interest you. It's Christ in the Garden of Olives. The figure of Christ. . .with bright red hair. [It] is not destined to be understood. ~Paul Gauguin to Vincent van Gogh, late October/early November 1889~" and "My situation here is difficult;. . .in spite of some discord, I cannot hold a grudge against a good hearted person who is sick and needs me. . . .I am staying here, but my departure is always likely. ~Paul Gauguin to a friend, 22 December 1888~" SWEEEEET I had alot of fun, and Tina was along so it was cool. Then for lunch we went to Taza's . . . which is like the center of hangin for the students of the Art Institute. AND GUESS WHAT????!!! I saw Adam!!! you know he goes there for school.. and he just happened to walk by Taza's and we pulled him inside and I was just like AHHHDAAAAAAMMMMN!!!!!!! ::jumps out of her chair:: He's like ah!! AH!! ACK !! Calm Down already! ::looks embarrassed as she sits back down quietly in her chair::squeaks out one more quite adam before becoming "normal" once again:: it was just so random and cool for him to walk by there!! After lunch he followed us to where we went next before his class at 1:00 We went to the Cultural Center where they had a display of artwork done by people with disabilities and such. It was some pretty good stuff. then we went back to the bus and go back to school.. yadda yadda then I came home and am typing this ^^ well I should be going I have work at 5:00 tonight and I have to get ready love ya all talk to you soon J. OH! one quick thing before I leave.... LOL last night while on the phone with Jay .. it was like only midnight or around there but anyways I was getting really sleepy and Jay would like keep waking me up every now and then when I would doze off.. then I just fell into a dead sleep LOL he was talkin.. yellin.. pushin buttons on the phone NOTHING and I mean NOTHING could wake me up lol I felt so bad I had fallen asleep on him.. I woke up around 5:10 a.m. went OWIE finding out I had fallen asleep on my phone then realized what had happened.. he found it cute, funny all that, and so did I but I was just like GOMENASAI lol I felt so bad for falling asleep on him.. but it's ok ::soft smile:: Jay didn't mind it too much and that's all that matters .. his feelings were all that matter . . . ::smiles:: ok now I'm really gonna get ready for work... J.

Thursday, September 27, 2001: Allo mes amis, comment allez vous? hey guys.. sorry I haven't updated lately . . I've been so busy with school and all.. and LOL at this very moment, at ::checks little clock:: 8:45 a.m., I'm sitting in British Literature class typing on my laptop... we were supposed to be typing papers on the Anglo Saxon poem, Beowulf, but the Network's down so we can't. well I have to go the class is ending I'll finish this later if I can I luv ya all talk to you soon J. Just a little update, I'm in physics class on my laptop again..bored as hell.. it's ::clecks clock again:: 2:56 w00!!! four more minutes left in the school day well, I'm gonnapack my things now more updates later luv ya J. Ok I'm back ^_^ it's now 8:37 p.m. so how are you all doing? I'm still doin my homework but that's ok .. just thought I'd finish my updating. . . GUESS WHAT??? I got my tongue pierced! w00! ^^ it's cool.. even though I have a lil lisp... I'm dealin though and eatin's funky feelin but whatever. . . my grades are doin well this year yay! And Music Land is going well too so all's pretty good in my life ^^ I have to do my homework now so I'll talk to you later à bientot J.

Friday, August 17, 2001: Well, here's what I have to say about my trip to Great Britain. IT KICKED ASS! . . . .yes. .so. . ::GRINS:: man it was so cool ^^ I had so much fun. I was with Kevin the entire time. .we looked so cute together, glued at the hip ::sighs happily:: all the places we went. . .we went to two castles. . .one in England and one in Wales. . .we went shopping in Chester, England, which was a lot of fun. . .I bought a spiked collar and bracelett, and two cds. . .Kevin bought me a beautiful glass unicorn, though I told him he didn't have to, but, being such a sweetheart, did anyways. . .we [our two families] had dinner together each night. . .the food was great. .Kevin and I saw Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within . . . good movie, but the story was a little weak. . .and me an' Kevin both went like "Huh? o_O" when at the very end, Cid said "Ooh, Warm." . . . . . .strange line. .but anyways, I enjoyed it. Kevin's mum and dad are both very nice people. I enjoyed talking to them. It was funny, cuz Kevin's mum said I had to come back cuz this was one of the few times she's been able to get pics of Kevin. ^_^ well I need to go. . .I might add a little more to this later, if not then talk to you soon minna-san. mkay I'm back I'm gonna add some more to this. I'm working on a new drawing. . .it's supposed to be a self portrait. . .but it don't 'xactly look like me. . .but it's good, and I like it so that's all that matters, ne? I've lost 14 pounds, isn't that great? ok anyways.. about my teeth situation. . .the stitches are all gone and everythin's all nice and better and stuff. . .yeah. . . o_O?um. . .LOL anyways, um.. I start school again in like. . .hrm. . .like five days........oh god. . .and I haven't even bought my text books yet. . .shit >_< well I just called the school bookstore and I think booksale are done. . .how am I going to get my books???? oh well. . .my mum will call my counceler or somethin. I hope everythin turns out ok. . .I dun wanna be one of those peeps who don't have their books on the first day of school and still don't have them for the next two weeks..... ...I miss Kevin..... sorry that was random... oh well, he's online right now, so I'm going to end this and go talk to him. Peace Yo. J.

Wednesday, August 8, 2001: Gomenasai Minna san . . . v.v? sorry everyone. . .I haven’t updated in so long. . .but I can explain…one reason is I’m busy with my MusicLand job, I’m being "stationed" in the first floor ~Jazz, New Age, ‘n?Classical~ department. . .it’s great to work down there though. The second floor, which has all the other music sections, doesn’t have any air. . .the damn air conditioner is broken and they can’t get anyone to fix it…while me, being downstairs has an air conditioner, and it’s great cuz it’s in the 90s outside. Plus when I’m on the first floor, I get to choose what music I want to play. . .now I’m really into Jazz. . .and if you are too, check out this artist: Keiko Matsui. She’s really good, and I have to say my fave album of hers is “Deep Blue? ^^ Then my next choice to be played is that new “Pure Moods III?cd. Also I’m the only one down there most of the time and there are not that many customers, so I can catch up on my reading. And the second reason I haven’t updated. . .is tomorrow, I will be in England, ::gets huge sparkly anime eyes with a light twirling around in them:: , with my sweetie. Finally that day is almost here. It’s going to be absolutely wonderful. I’m going to have so much planned. . .and I’ve been real busy getting clothes for the trip, taking in some shirts that were too big, buying gifts for Kevin and his family, and some other stuff. . .Tang had a request. ^^?He told me to ask if I can bring him back “the Clock? . . . yep good old Big Ben. I just laughed but still I told him I’d try. lol.. ^^? Oh god I nearly forgot! O_O How the hell could I forget this?? Just last week, Thursday, I had oral surgery, I had all four wisdom teeth taken out, All within an hour!!. . .The doctor gave me a local. . .I didn’t even go under, I was awake the entire time. . .I could feel my gums being scraped away. . .the teeth being pulled out. . . ¬_¬¿ Ewww ::shudders:: During the surgery, they had to give me more Novocain ?(however it's spelled). . .what they had given me wasn’t enough. Even though I didn’t make a sound, my entire body was shaking hard and I had silent tears streaming out. It was terrible. . . x_X Well I had bloody cotton things in my mouth for two days, and I was on so many pills. I still have the stitches in there, but the pain is gone. . .the pain was terrible. . .I came home and tried to rest. . .then I tried to eat . .simple chocolate pudding. I could barely open my mouth, and it wouldn’t even stay in my mouth. . .I tried to swallow but the pain was immense. . .I couldn’t even swallow pudding >_< . . .I was crying. . . v_v;; thank god my dad was there with me. . .he really helped me a lot during the next few days after my surgery. . .thank you daddy. =^.^= Alright, you wont hear from me till about Wednesday or Thursday of next week. . .I’m gonna tell all about how much fun Kevin and I had. ^_^ I have a lot to do before we leave. . .I have to get my parrots and rats to their caretakers, and I have to clean their cages first. . .it’s only right. And I need to call some people, mainly getting my work schedule. So I’d better get my ass in gear, cuz last night our power went out, so it slowed us down a little. -_- Ok, so I want everyone to keep cool, and I’ll tell you all about it ::grin:: Till we speak again. . .Ciao. ^.~ J.

Monday, July 16, 2001: OK peeps! My jobs at MusicLand KICKS ASS. It is just SO COOL! Probably most of you out there didn't know that Saturday was the French Revolution date. VIVE LA FRANCE!! Ok anyways.. I wanna see the Final Fantasy movie I want you guys to tell my if it's good or not.. guess whaaaat?? I pierced my belly button. That makes 12 piercings in total now ^_^ My friend Jay introduced me to a site called Face The Jury where people can vote on your pic. Face the Jury I'm doin pretty well my Name there is GothicAngel of course. Not too long until I get to England..so excited.. ^_^ C'mon people.. sign my guestbook!! I'm gettin lonely not hearin from ya. pwease sign *puppy dog face* I've added three new pics to the pictures page. Check 'em out two have me in them. I'm done for now Take care everyone. J.

Monday, July 9, 2001: Hey ^_^ sorry I haven't updated in a while ... well I did update the site just not here.. er.. ok.. um I have added alot more drawings and a few pics. Plus since my good friend Jay-san bought me a webcam, I was able to take a few pics of yours truly TeeHee ^_^ it's Moi in da flesh BayBee!! Hehe.. so oh yeah! I GOT THE MUSICLAND JOB!!! *JUAD* ^_^_^ I KNEW I'd get it! I could just tell by Brian (the guy who interviewed me) that he loved me. Working there is so cool and I actually was able to help two people the first day and I didn't screw up. The guys there are so cute and nice. Especially Brian and Tom. and we wear these cute little vests with name tags ^_^ so much fun and another cool thing is that now I get discounts at not only MusicLand/SamGoody but also at Best Buy. I'm going to quit my job at the toy store so I can have more hours at MusicLand. Very very soon I'll be in England.. let's see.. only one month. YAY ^_^ I've already bought new clothes for the trip .. spending is so much fun and hell why not look good for Great Britain, ne? ^_~ I've also been doin my Advanced Placement Studio Art homework.. this is one subject that I seriously don't mind doin homework for. *sweatdrop* And if me and Bertina can get our acts together .. we're gonna do one of the assignments together. Which should be real fun. also.. for those of you who are interested in Gothic music.. I recommend Dead Can Dance I really like them. They were recommended to me by my hot Goth DJ friend, Paul.. He said they're good and he's absolutely right. J.

Wednesday, June 27, 2001: My job is coming long pretty well, but I just got called by MusicLand/SamGoody for an interview, which took place today. It went really well and the guy there who interviewed me was the manager and he just absolutely loved my personality. Plus my interview he gave me went really smoothly. Man do I want this job.. This would be such an awesome place to work at... even though I have a job right now.. I could balance my hours and work both jobs..sound reasonable to you? He doesn't even mind my dyed hair and nose piercing. Which just rocks. It's 2:32 a.m. right now so I should be heading into bed soon. soon.. Check out the new drawings I put up and also my photos have new additions. One photo is of me even.. *sweatdrop* Oh and by the way my new additions will have a "Snow Youma" from Sailor Moon next to it. lol well talk to you later minna san! J.

Thursday, June 21, 2001: *cries* I have another headache.... and my forehead feels like it's burning up... but I guess I will survive... well my job seems like it's going pretty well and tomorrow I get to learn the cash register...that shouldn't be too hard, I mean hell it's all computerized. This is my day off. So I spent the entire morning watching Trigun and Serial Experiments Lain. Staring at my TV screen didn't help my headache. But!.. What's really cool is that the store where I work is located right next to the store where my french tutor works. She works at Lord&Taylor. She always looks so sophisticated and pretty. It was great being with her while on my break. That's all I have to say for now. Ciao! ^_^ J.

Wednesday, June 20, 2001: well.. I have added a new cursor to the pages...it's a black pointer with blue lighting surrounding it..in case you haven't noticed *sweatdrop* well anyways I finally got a job! I'm workin at the toy store in our mall. This means I'm goin to England this summer for sure. It's going to be so much fun. OK I need to cokk dinner then head off to work..talk to you later minna-san! J.

Friday, June 15, 2001: *sighs* it's my birthday...but I'm not excited at all...this morning around 8:00 a.m. my aunt calls and wakes me up..already a bad start.*picks up the phone* She asks for my dad or mom..she sounds very distressed..in my non-awake state I mumble something about them working then tell her this is my cell phone, call my dad's.. *hang up* I try to go back to sleep. It's no use ... I'm already awake now *gets out of her bed and stumbles into one of her parrot's cages* ooff... ow... bleh.. *sighs* OK I'll go online.. hrm.. no one's on.. I'll go watch anime.. I watched my movies for over three hours and then I receive a very disturbing phone call. My dad is on the phone and he tells me that my grandma has just died this morning...so that's what my aunt called for.. I cry for over four hours ... call me a cry baby if you wish. but I couldn't help it.. The whole day was just bad after that.. until Kevin called me that really cheered me up.. Thank you Kevin. well tomorrow is the funeral and my birthday party.. woo hoo.... what a great combo.. hopefully tomorrow will be better. I've added two more drawings which I have put right at the top of the drawings page. J.

Thursday, June 14, 2001: WooHoo!!! Tomorrow is my birthday!!! ^_^ I've already gotten a few presents and they're all so cool ^_^ and a special thanks to Jay-san, he got me the coolest of them all: a hoop for my nose along with three really pretty studs. DOMO!!! ^_^_^_^ As of last week Friday I am on summer break.. it finally got here *exhausted sigh* I haven't updated for a while cuz I have been lookin for a summer job. Hopefully I'll get to work at the place I really like. I can't say what it is yet cuz.. if I do then I dunno.. maybe I'll get bad luck or somethin.. ok anyways I've added a new picture on the main page, it's Yuna from Final Fantasy Ten. The game is lookin really cool I have a video clip from it it's a minute and a half long. sign my guestbook everyone!! ^_^ I've also added my ICQ # and AIM screennames. contact me ^_^ J.

Wednesday, June 6, 2001: Ok I've made life easier on you by shrinking my drawings.. lol I looked at one of them and I was like whoa! this is too huge. *sweatdrop* so yeah I shrunk them. and I added two fan arts plus an anime drawing of yours truely... and I finally got my butt into gear and added the link to my favorite anime store. I've taken three of my finals, and got an A in art, a B- in health, but I don't know what I got in American Literature yet, though I think I did fine...after all.. lol.. it WAS open book *sweatdrop* let's see.. I have the finals for these classes left.. US History, French 3, and Algebra 2 Trigonometry oh fun...... just shoot me (please don't in real life ... tis a joke ... TANG j/k ... *pause* wait no ^^;; to all you guys I know in real life just don't do it k? no matter how much you may like to don't) *cough* um.. where was I? oh yeah! and just a thanks to my friends who signed my book.. for those of you haven't yet, sign it ^_~ J.

Friday, June 1, 2001: I read my guestbook messages and yes I could understand the french. I would um.. like to thank Zack for his .. uh wonderful .. message ... thanks... it's very.. well.. ok and yes I would also like to thank you Kevin ^_^ I love you ^_^. Woo Hoo!! Only 2 actual days of this school left. soon I'll be getting new pictures of my drawings up but since they are all about the size of 24"x36" I needed to take pics of them...so as soon as my film gets developed they'll be up. J.

Friday, May 25, 2001: I have added music control bars to each page. This way if you get annoyed with the music, you can shut it off. I don't remember all the changes I've made recently, so just take a look around and I guess you'll find out. . .or something. . .oh yeah I added a guestbook. J.

Sunday, May 20, 2001: I have finally reuploaded my pictures and the site looks like it's finally functioning again. If there's anything not working properly, let me know right away. J.

Thursday, May 17, 2001: Thanks to my wonderful friend, Jay, my site now has a little bit more organization to it. The main page, as you probably noticed is set up nicely now. And thanks to my damn server where I uploaded my pics, they can't be seen right now. The stupid server is down. I guess I'll just have to wait. . .and when that thing gets back up I'll add another drawing. Heh... J.

Wednesday, May 16, 2001:Allright *cracks her knuckles* I will now fix all of those MANY typos from this morning. . . ok don't kill me for typos. . .I'm sittin here with no lights on and my contacts are out. the only way I am able to see is by using my optical mouse light ^^;;;;;; oh well.. it's...*checks clock*...12:19 am. . .I should be in bed, but it's like 80?in my bedroom >_< tossin an turnin! Stupid Netscape wont allow for peeps to view my site correctly! I'm so mad... why is everythin based around sex?? uhh.... I have no clue... I am babbling and I have no clue what I am talkin bout. I think I'll just go hide in a corner and try to go to sleep. oh god should I just delete this when I am awake? who knows? or... rather who cares? what AM I Talkin bout??? babble babble babble ..... ok done spell checking. . .I'm going to work on a table so there can be a fixed margin for the links. right now, I'm working on a new art project. A self portrait in which the picture I'm drawing from Actually Looks HALF-WAY DECENT. I mean Wow how did THAT Happen?? I NEVER take decent pictures. . .oh well. . .I'm done ranting. J.

Sunday, May 13, 2001: well. . .it's mother's day, but it's only 3:43 am. . .I left my mom's card and gift downstairs, so that way she'll find them when she wakes up. the site has been updated again. I have added a links sections and more in my profile section. The banners for the links I got from Tony_Tiny's webpage. He's a REALLY good artist. I've added a link to his site.plus. . .in the adoptions page, I added a page with fae. They're all so cute, but I have to go with the Gothic Snow Farie (the one with the black dress and blue flames at the bottom). . . OK it's now 5:59 pm. . .I have once again changed the look of the links. . .a few of the banners I created. I need fooooood... I haven't had lunch or breakfast yet. All I have had were a few Triscuits and M&Ms. *frowns* J.

Wednesday, May 9, 2001: I have added more pictures to the new special pics section. And I have also added more to my drawings' section. *yawns* soooo tired. . .I have been staying up 'till about 4:30 a.m. I have been sleeping in for my first two periods and my mom has been calling me out. I have been staying up so late working on papers, projects, works of art. . .I am so glad the school year is almost over, but now is when the teachers realize that they have to catch up to be able to finish all they need to get done for the year. . .so they load us down with WAY Too much homework! erggg. . . SAVE MEEEeeee....... J.

Monday, May 7, 2001: Instead of having all of my drawings on the main page, I have created a seperate page for them. J.

Saturday, May 5, 2001: I have added music to all the pages except for the actual picture pages. . if I am confusing, you'll see, don't worry. . .I'm not sure if the music can be heard on every server though. . .I think I am done with major tests for the year, except for my finals; I took the PSAT, the ACT, the PSAE, and today I took the SAT. . .*exhausted sigh* J.

Friday, May 4, 2001: Soon I will be adding a section of pictures I have taken that are special to me. . .the most special one will be the picture of my fiancée, Kevin. He just looks so handsome. . .I have also added a section about me. J.

Thurday, May 3, 2001: I didn't get much sleep last night just 1 1/2 hours. . .I am staying alive on just caffeine. *sigh* so tired. . .anyways, I added music to three of the pages so I hope you like them. J.

Wednesday, May 2, 2001: I have added a little clock to the bottom of the main page, and since I love animated .gifs, there will be a few of those little guys running around here and there. ^_^ J.

Tuesday, May 1, 2001: Alright. . .I have made a little adjustment, and now the pictures should be able to be viewed by Netscape users. This seems to be going smoothly. . .so I am proud of myself. Also, Tang has decided to wait with the Gamer's Spyglass website until about June. oy vey. . . J.

Monday, April 30, 2001: I have added a new section. . .adoptions. I find them rather cute ^.^. . .but not everyone can view them. Unfortunately, Netscape users are unable to. J.

Sunday, April 29, 2001: ok well it seems that Tang, who is the webmaster to the Gamer's SpyGlass, is working on the site. . .so it is temporarily unavailable. . .yay. . .sorry about that ^^;; J.